Sorry I had to end the post so I could go back and re read and answer more
Are you in therapy at all? Both H and I go privately and then together every three weeks. It gives me a chance to speak freely and then to come together to work on our issues
There is a lot of hope! And not just for your spouse but also for you! We're starting our seventh month sober and while it can be hard, it is the most worthwhile thing we've done - him get sober and both of us get healthy!
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