Hijcooper, sorry to hear about your current condition, I'm sure it is horrible. You mentioned your father...break the cycle. Someone mentioned on this site a day or two ago that they had had enough and were willing to do ANYTHING it took to get better. Based on what you have described, having the same attitude might be helpful. Take full advantage of your supportive wife and friends, and the SR family. You have thanked everyone here on SR in one of your posts, in the end you will be thanking yourself. Good luck man.