One thing I am looking forward to is seeing this gathering... really SEEING it... through different eyes than those I've participated in similar gatherings with in the past.
I wonder what I will see? I wonder what I will remember? I wonder about the kinds of conversations and interactions I will have and how they'll differ from those of the party-fueled, boozed-up, drug-addled past.
I wonder what I'll learn and embrace and what will arise for me emotionally and rationally....
It's almost going to be like going to a familiar land - but with amnesia that has created an odd, illusory picture of the past that I will be comparing against the reality I encounter.
Viewed this way, it's exciting to anticipate.