Well today sucks. I'm feeling lazy and sluggish and unmotivated and low about myself and anxious. I have been trying to find a room to rent for a decent price... And so far I haven't received any responses back. I posted an ad looking for a room and have thus far elicited two weird sexual responses telling me I have a place to live if I can do something in exchange. Gross how can people think like that? I realized even if I move in with the girl I work with who is overcharging I can't really even afford it at the moment. When I started my job my boss said she would be able to give me 3-4 shifts a week. This week I have two shifts and 12 hours of work making less than minimum wage.
Life sucks sometimes.
I have to clean the house I don't even want to move I want to lay in bed and cry until I fall asleep but I'm fighting back the tears. I pray to god I just stop using. I pray that I can figure it all out. The ups and downs are hard.