back again
I had 4 months of sobriety in 2010...then almost 11 months last year. I've gone through a lot of difficult life events in the first part of this year, which really for a while there, I didn't think I could stand the pain of. Divorce (not due to the drinking), having to move, and live on my own again. I have a serious illness. Very serious. Though I work full time at a demanding job.
Today is day one again. And my last day one. I would say, I "hope" it's the last, but I don't want to give myself an out. I can't do this anymore. I've never been an AA person, but I'm willing to give anything a try at this point. And maybe that's the mindset that will make this time permanent. I'm just so done. I look forward to reconnecting, and spending a lot of time on here learning and dealing with this head on, instead of trying to act like a normie. I'm just not.