Life, family... and of course life - can be stressful and challenging to manage our personal balance.
Are you feeling your sobriety is at risk?
What can you do today to give yourself an outlet? Can you get some vigorous exercise? Can you visit with someone who has an understanding ear you can talk with? Perhaps a meeting you can make it to?
It's times like you're describing - when we're feeling fed up and at the end of our ropes - that we can become vulnerable and alcohol or drugs can strike us as the clear answer.
(which of course, they're not).
I hope you're able to find ways to relieve the internal pressure and let yourself release your hold on the things you cannot control.