Sasha4

I need to get some things off my chest.

I have a few things going on at the moment so life is not all plain sailing.
They rank high on stressful things that can happen in life - job, home, money, moving etc etc.


I'm taking it as it comes.
I'm trying to wade though it and solve problems as I go

Today, I almost came came close to loosing my temper.
My family being the reason why.
Nothing massive, nothing really, really toxic, mainly irritants.
I did loose my temper but not to the extent I felt like doing and I didn't say the home truths I wanted to.

I am now feeling resentful.
I feel like I want to isolate myself from them and keep my distance.
However, I am supposed to be moving closer to them.
Its making me think this is a huge mistake.

We have dynamics in our family that I think are wrong, but I have come to realise from years and years of trying to change them, that its easier to keep myself to myself.

I just feel like a simmering pot ready to boil over!
I think I am making a huge mistake but how do you tell your family that in no uncertain terms and make them realise their behaviour is the reason why I don't want to be near them?
Is it bad I want to tell them that I don't want to spend time with them and I don't want to be near them because of x, y and z?