Hi Feren,
I could have written your post a couple of years ago. Two bottles of wine was pretty much the norm and I would frequently turn up for work hungover. I was never confronted about it but looking back people would have known. I has a very responsible job in terms of public safety and could have easily harmed someone. I must have been over the limit every morning and that fills me with shame. If you shouldn't drive or work then don't. People might be annoyed but you can't arrested for calling in sick. Good luck, you are in the right place here, this site saved my life .