Checking in for the day. I will not drink today no matter what.
I get the blah feeling from sobriety. However, if I look at my drinking days they were really the blah ones, only artificially livened up with the drama of drinking. Drinking gave me something to plan, something to do, and something to recover from. I had tremendous highs and horrible lows. Take that away and life can feel very flat. But when I honestly look back on it, I was spending hours sitting in one place pouring beers down my throat. That really was the flat boring life. I prefer sobriety today.