Originally Posted by
NOLAGirl 
Do you ever dare to imagine in your head what life would have been like if your alcoholic parent wasn't an alcoholic - Visualize in your head that a memory went differently from reality? Does anyone else that has an AM or AF do this? I'm not saying this is healthy thinking or productive (the opposite), but I'm wondering if I'm not the only one that does it.
Sort of. I can't even imagine what a good relationship with my dad would look like, or who he might have been without the booze (I'm guessing the same old ******* I knew, but with better hand-eye coordination). But when he died, I thought "man, if only he'd done this years ago!" I like to imagine growing up with just my mom and my brother, without dear old dad around. I think about it a lot, like when I'm drifting off to sleep at night.