Thank you everyone
Shooting star no he didn't give me signals to behave the way I did but I panicked either because he got too close too quickly and my behaviour was to push him away or I thought he didn't like me and I was clinging on!!
Hawkeye, my work is holding it all up I've requested my pension estimate several times and they keep messing it up and delaying everything. I'm getting really frustrated as I want this over. At times I think just sign his petition get it over with but I know I have to think of my financial security for the future!!
I am sad that I messed this friendship up, he was a really good friend a long time ago and the only reason we lost touch was because ex a didn't like him and was jealous of our friendship!