Today's eff up.
No I didn't drink. I really want to.
Every day there will be failure and humiliation, I just never know what it will be because of my stupid brain that does not work right. And I have horrible anxiety over what it will be because I will be having an ok day and i always, always do something stupid.
Today it was coming up over 30 dollars short in my drawer at work because I cannot, literally cannot do math or handle money and the damn machine is so old I have to do it all in my head or expose myself for the ****** I am and drag a calculator out. You can't imagine how humiliating it is to have such difficulty with basic arithematic.
Well it figures then I'd fail at all aspects of life, which I have.
That 30 bucks had to come out of my pocket, and 30 dollars is an entire half a day's pay for me. Half a ten hour, locked inside no breaks day.
I was in tears.