Originally Posted by
zenchaser 
Just this week I cried 4 times over people who I lost years ago and I just never really allowed myself to grieve. I just kept pushing it down and pouring drinks on top of it...... and all of a sudden there it was just waiting for me. I haven't cried this much in years. I'm not talking about a few tears but deep down sadness and grief.
It will come when the time is right I guess.
Same here. I was too afraid of the strength of the emotions to grieve. I never recovered. Good to hear.