Thanks Jimbo,
For so long, I had that feeling that I might find more life-enjoyment, if only I had a chemical on board. I still struggle with enjoying life without the added "kick", even with activities that I'm already passionate about.
I've always loved music, both listening and playing. I played while I was sober for years, and it was still enjoyable. I didn't feel like I was missing anything. That was until I couldn't stay sober. Then, I thought that I could play better and enjoy it more with my chemical. I suppose it stems from that old myth about artists who become more artistic with a chemical.
Like you were saying, Jimbo, It's possible to get "deeper" and more "immersed" into an experience, without the thick layer of bs. I, too, need to rewire my brain to that concept. It's about, being able to still experience the same passion I once had, without the false gratification from a chemical.
Peace,
michaels