Damn - you've been through the gauntlet and you should be exempt from pain for a long, long time. I shudder to think where I'd be after all that.
I'm past the "hide the sharp objects" stage.
Well then you are doing better than me at times
I don't think you walk around in a rage. Reading what you wrote, I could feel your anger - wholly trigger - because I have a ton of it too - and I don't want to minimize that. We have things to be angry about!
It helps us all so much to get things down on screen - sort it out, find the roots, and 'Weed-B-Gone' that &h!t.
Mostly with me it's feeling as if I have no voice at times or if I do have a voice I'm not being heard.
Oh man, isn't that the truth of it all?! I really think it has to happen this way for me....if not for ABF - all the pain and torment and sadness, I don't think I would have ever started searching for and listening to my OWN voice!
All that misery - their mess. It all circles back to being about us. FINALLY!
(((HUGS))) to you.
From 1/2 of the Fire Twins