Huuuuuuuug!! When they blow off the baby, that just cuts me up. I remember my husband loudly got out of bed and took his pillows and stomped out of the room because the baby was making adorable cooing sounds at 8am. I said "Aren't you afraid to miss out on these moments?" He turned around and looked me in the eye and said "No."
Of course he has great fathering moments too. But it's so unpredictable. I know one thing, my house is always at its cleanest when he's high.. heroin gets my kitchen spotless.
I'm trying to get up the strength to file for divorce as well. Prayers your way.