Trying again
since i was here last, I was sober for 7 months, then off and on.
I ended up getting really bad on the "ons" but nothing was affecting my real life, I was still a functional work drunk, got a house, etc.
over the past year, it has gone down hill so fast, so fast. I did the outpatient rehab and it didn't do anything.
everyone says get a sponsor but that is intimidating. don't you have to know someone for longer than a few meetings for sponsorship? what if I choose someone who makes the whole thing worse? I literally choose the worst people to be in my life, not on purpose.....
Everyone tells me I am the kind of person that needs direction with a program and I believe a guide would be exactly what i need, I just don't know how to do that.
anyway, i drinking has gotten me to my new bottom again after a new six months of sober and I am just tired.
Appreciate your time and help