That's interesting to me beachy, that you feel healthier now. I, too, feel much healthier distancing myself from my AM, in fact the only time I schedule an appointment anymore is when her crap starts invading my bubble again. And last time it happened (texts from my half brother) I was strong enough to answer him, and then leave it alone and go about my life and didn't even make an appointment! It was a great feeling. It's so inspiring to see other people with the same struggles making their way and getting stronger, really glad I found this forum.