Noinsanity, sending you lots of support on your rollercoaster! Again, I am there right with you! And your right, in the beginning there is no congruency between what our brains tell us and how are heart feels. It sucks! For whatever reason, I feel like after a few months of NC, I am back feeling hurt, angry, and sad too!
Sometimes when I get in this rut, I try to simplify and be more objective and let the brain take over. Its plain and simple......We both fell for alcoholics and dating them has hurt us and will always hurt as as long as we stay! I don't want a lifelong of that pain....2 years was enough for me!!
Wishing you peace and hugs!