I sincerely hope you reconsider too Rick - nothing will get better while you're drinking because drinking solves nothing and makes big problems even bigger.
My drinking life wasn't living - it was existing.
I think you know why you're here as much as we all do.
Everyone of us deserves a good happy life filled with friends. I would have never believed I'd have that but I do.
There is always time to write a new chapter to our story, Rick. Always.
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