Hi Rick
I'm sorry you feel alone - I felt that way for a lot of my life too - I think you'll find a lot of us have or maybe still do.
Insecurity made me feel like other people wouldn't or couldn't like me.
When others let me down, I felt that proved my case.
Quitting drinking was a major step forward tho - instead of pushing all my insecurities to one side I had to face them. Instead of drinking problems away I had to face them.
I don't know how long you've been sober - do things seem to be getting better for you in any way or simply worse ?
It took me a while to untie some mental knots - I'd thought a certain way for 40 years - but the results were worth it
I'm sorry the people you've seen about this have been of little help.
There are good therapists and counsellors out there - don't give up on finding hope peace and happiness
You're never alone here either - there's a ton of support here. Feel free to check out the Class of June support thread in the Newcomers forum
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