GT....I think you nailed it with your sugar example. I knew and recognized my AV as such and still drank, thinking that since I KNEW it was my AV it somehow made my decision to drink more enlightened (?) or responsible (?) ha! Lunacy. That tricky AV wasn't going to get ME to change my mind about my BP and drink...I was going to show IT and do it all by myself! That was pretty much what was in my head leading up to my drinking on Saturday.
As for contingency plans.....oh I've got them, but didn't have one for whatever got into my head last week (see above). I blatantly disregarded my Big Plan which I haven't come anywhere close to doing in the past few months. My mantra has been drinking is not an option for me. Period. Until it was, and that's alarming. Anyway, I get the point and the tiger woods example hits home with me, thanks MM.
Anatta.....I'll be casting a wider net too. I know we are both sincere in our desire to quit this ****.
SDH....sorry to hijack your thread. And thanks for starting it.