That is where acceptance comes into
play for me. I had to accept that fact
that I was brought into this world be
2 parents, one which was sick with
her own demons she carried from her
own childhood.
I have to accept the fact that I was
the one of 4 kids she chose to single
out and verbally, emotionally and
physically abuse because of her own
sickness.
There is not a thing in this world that
can change the past. The past is over
for me and now I live in the present.
While living in recovery using steps
and principles of a recovery program
taught to me to incorporate in my
everyday life, I can place those people,
places or things into the hands of my
HP - Higher Power of my understanding
for safe keeping and release all those
heavy crosses or burden weighing heavy
on my shoulders.
I don't want to be weighed down anymore
wondering or worrying about my dysfunctional
childhood. Today I want to be happy, healthy,
and most of all free from the past and the
only way to do that is to accept and let go.
It's taken me a many one days at a time
sober for the past 24 yrs. to learn what
I needed to learn in recovery to achieve
that freedom that so many have talked
about in recovery.
You can achieve that freedom too.
