I want to fix my heart and stop the hurt!
my ex Abf has resurfaced and declared that he wanted to go to rehab. He also parted ways with his addict girl pal (supposedly) . He has been so sweet and full of apologies, planning for the future, etc.
Except for one caveat...I ended up catching him in a flat out lie. I have never been outright lied to by a friend and am saddened. He was supposed to have gone to his mom's house on Monday to begin " his new life". AWOL ever since!
I am sick with myself that have been foolish enough to continue to trust anything that an addict says. When he opens his mouth I never know whether he is blowing smoke up my ass or telling the truth. I am too smart to put myself in a situation where I have to question where I stand with someone.
I am tired of crying and feeling so emotionally empty. I know I cannot solve this for him. I can only control my own destiny. I just want to feel normal again and I want to stop loving him...it sucks!