I too see a lot of healing in your post.
It really does help to write things down to see them in black and white and SEE clearly the reality of the situation.
I shared my story at Al Anon last week and made pages of notes so I didn't miss any of the I important things I needed/ wanted to share. It brought up some very very painful things......and it was hard in many ways....but there was so much support and friendship holding me up in that room that through the tears, and a bit of laughter I really was able to move forward too.
And although it is painful for you/ us to see how it really is, we have to feel it, grieve and work through it in able to move forward with our lives so well done on you. It sounds like you are making great progress and as we say in Al Anon 'Progress not perfection'.
I also regularly get told/ raged at... ' you need some serious help for your mental illness'...... ' get some help'.......As night after nights he drinks himself into a near coma....... Sigh.
Al Anon and SR keep me sane.......and your spa day sounds fabulous!
Take care Phiz
