Good for you to write these things down. It will help. You can go back and read them whenever you are feeling sad or like you made a mistake leaving. Once you read all of the the things he did and remember all of the hurtful ways he treated you, it will help you see you made the right choice and decision. I hope you have a wonderful summer and enjoy every day!!! Don't give this jerk a second thought. He showed you he is. And look where he is now, jobless and drinking more. You dodged a bullet! You can't cure him. Take care of yourself!!!