Hi Vainstraw,
part of your post "I've been drinking immoderately for twenty years (I'm 41), mainly to forget a very strong inferiority complex " made me think about my own drinking in that I had from a very young age an inferiority complex due to my father verbally beating me down at every chance which also resulted in me being very shy. When I got older and found booze I just loved it as it took away the shyness and a lot of the inferior complex at least while I was intoxicated. But after 20+ years I found that I was not that shy around people anymore while not drinking but I would still drink anyways. Now I have finally realized that I am addicted and enough is enough. I have wasted to many years to let this carry on any longer.