Hi and welcome hk1993
I've loved addicts too - and I've felt that if I left they would have no one to help...but they always seemed to do ok.
Loving someone is great, but loving someone so much it hurts us is not so good.
If your relationship as it is is making you sad you have a right to question the future.
I know you'll find a lot of support here on SR.
Check out our Family And Friends Of Substance Abusers Forum too
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