Thomas, you make it sound as though this marriage is all about you, what you want and what you need. What about your wife's wants and needs? I'm sure she didn't marry you to become your babysitter. I am sorry, but if I was Mrs Thomas while your flight was landing in Burbank, I'd be on the first plane in the opposite direction.
Think this through. Your boozing is YOUR problem, not hers. Why not get help to fix it instead of turning up where she's at and making it her responsibility? Is it the alcohol that's making you act out like a child?
I am truly sad for you and for the state you are in, I have been there. But I got myself out, because only I could do that. I will add my best wishes to those of the rest of the posters on this thread. I really do hope you sort yourself out and be the reliable solid man your wife is probably longing for. x