Welcome aboard Tryinghard7,
Have you ever thought about some professional therapy (rehab)? I am currently enrolled in a good IOP (intensive outpatient ) therapy. I'm in for alcohol but a lot of members are there for opiates too. They usually have day and night sessions, so it is convenient to attend. My sessions are 6-9 pm and I'm really learning a lot about my addiction. If you have good insurance it is very affordable. They can also prescribe meds to help out with any issues you have. I'm glad I googled IOP's in my area and then found the perfect one for me. Best Wishes