Hey there Thomas,
Well it sounds like you are trying to convince us and/or yourself that you can handle the booze. I am not going to "preach" to you, but we all know where this is going this early in sobriety. It will become a full blown pissup. You will feel worse and so it goes.
Time to get back on that bicycle mate. If you can do this while your wife is away - imagine how much easier it will be to cope with other situations. Not too late yet chap, pour the booze down the sink - you know you have to and get back on the bike.
Cheers,
ZAB