It's been almost a year since my R[?]XBF dumped me before heading off to jail and rehab. I didn't "get" it until around Christmas, when he got himself a new gf. He had been giving me mixed signals during that interim that he still was in love with me, but he needed to work on himself before getting back into a relationship.
I'm still where you are, and I reset my clock to December, so I'm five months out. I have an appointment with a counselor this Friday to deal. I miss him, I love him, I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm lonely, and I'm preoccupied. I want to get my head on right and just be OK.