AO, it was just nuts for me the first six months
Got to be totally honest, lol. Just up and down all over the place crazy nuts for at least six months if not nine. There was one low point about four to six months in (wish I'd journaled at that point but I wasn't consistent) where I was just flat on my face in bed for about a month. So depressed. I'd crashed from coffee and running. I had to rethink my exercise plan after that
My brain wanted to ZOOM into recovery and have everything be wonderfully perfect like right NOW
But of course it couldn't and so it had to heal in its own time, not exactly how I wanted it to.
The amazing thing about the first year is that's when I learned the most about how to "just deal" with life and have patience and compassion with myself, and with others.
And I hope to goodness I never have to start over