There is a huge back story in regards to my older kids and my ex. It's long and unbelievable at times, but it ends in me not being able to leave, simple as that. There aren't any loopholes and we definitely don't have a good relationship where he could be understanding and helpful. I really know how to pick 'em apparently. So I'm not just saying it to make excuses, that IS my reality right there. I am stuck here until my 9 year old graduates HS. But that is ok, I will do my best to work with it.
As far as support, he WILL be paying it soon. Honestly, he has been helping financially quite tremendously, but I don't know if he does it to manipulate, or if he truly is that nice of a person. Regardless, I am going to file for support.
I really am feeling relieved to be having this conversation with people who understand and who won't sugar coat. I am praying that I can stay strong this time. This has happened too much!