Hi Hotelcalifornia, welcome to SR. I found this site good for me, preferable to face to face but that suites me, I can get up in middle of the night and there's someone here.
Also, there's lots of experiences you may be able to relate to.
I'm with you on wanting to leave my options open. I always thought I would train myself to drink moderately, like others do, but nope. It was zero alcohol or drink until I fell asleep or backed out.
I chose not to drink.