jbm125

Hi Jaimes....you can't run with the same people, go to the same places and be around the same things if you're serious about getting clean and sober. YOU have to change.
Clean and sober friends, places where there's no temptations and for God's sake no adderall or anything else. Sounds to me like you need a rehab where you can learn how live a life without coke. Rehab, or if not rehab, NA or AA meetings, and lots of meetings, will teach you what you need to do to try to put your life back together. Being on disablity gives you tons of free time. Use it wisely. Not hanging out with stoners and drunks. AA has a saying that applies to addicts "an alcoholic/addict alone is in his worst company". Coke isn't everywhere, you need to go where it isn't.
With people who think it's a soda and you need to avoid a substitute like adderall and especially meth. Booze is just as bad. Good luck and God bless.