Originally Posted by Zebra1275

Welcome to SR!

I feel like a beast comes and takes over at night and I loose control to it.

Sounds like you are in the right place. Alcoholism is progressive. Ask yourself this, and be honest, if you keep drinking, where will you be in 1 year, 5 years or 10 years?

If you don't like the answer, you don't have to go there.