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Dee74 I can certainly identify with how you feel EndGame...I've felt the same way many times, including sometimes here on SR.
It's not wrong to have high standards - as long as you realise it's likely noone else will ever share those standards with you
I think tho, it is wrong if you're suffering in any way from those high standards.
I was the King of Stoicism and the Prince of Responsibility.
Looking back, my work ethic in my early recovery years was a lot like my drinking ethic - full steam ahead and damn the consequences (to me).
I've, finally, learned a little balance.
What I once would have thought of as a selfish decision to step away and take a break from work, I now see as a necessary - sometimes mandatory - decision, even if it does mean sometimes someone else has to pull up the slack.
I'm not indestructible and I'm not impervious.
I'm not indispensible either.
Realising all those things was a revelation to me
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All true.
I've noticed that I've been "overindulging" in work recently, a way to distract myself from what's happening, to not have to deal with all of it on an emotional level. It's no coincidence, then, that I took out my frustrations
at work.
The bolded part of your comments, to me, indicates a type or level of perfectionism that is clearly self-destructive, and I was gracious enough to act this out. Now is not the time to attempt to live up to unrealistic standards of behavior.
Thanks again.