At my wits end
I feel stupid and such a waste of everyone's time - both here and in 'real life'.
It should be so simple - don't buy alcohol. But despite posting here, thinking about strategies etc. knowing I have a teenage son that deserves better I keep doing it.
For the 3rd time this week I've got up (it is3:30 in the UK) and looked back at the TV Guide for the channel the TV was last on to see what we watched last night (the film Angels and Demons) and don't remember watching it.
My son has four more weeks before his exams are finished (he is 16). I have a thought in my mind that after that he would be better off without me .
I can't do this.