PS EG, I also very much heard your concerns about a possible pre-relapse pattern starting within yourself. I greatly admire your ability to be seeing that with much awareness. Wish I'd had the same, many times, over this past few years of multiple relapses, I really do. However, as I was fumbling to suggest above, it seems a bit counter-productive in that regard to over-egg the guilt pudding for this particular, and very specific set of circumstances, and blow it up into 'OMG, warning! warning! red alert! this is the downhill slope to relapse!'. I believe you have both the experience and the acuity of mind to be able to put some of that black n white thinking back into some perspective, no?