Originally Posted by
pleasehelpmeout 
I just feel like I can't be happy without the alcohol.
Frankly, you don't know if you can't be happy. You haven't been sober enough.
Early recovery isn't a joyride. It's tough. And you have to be tough, and not worry about finding instant gratification.
Quit drinking, recover from the alcohol abuse, and lo, you just might find out you are happy.
And as for the celexa, it probably wasn't working if you were drinking on it. Once you quit, and if you are depressed, reach out to your doctor.