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Originally Posted by
pleasehelpmeout 
I just feel like I can't be happy without the alcohol.
BOOM! - you phrased it prefectly!
It is JUST a FEELING.
What does your rational/thinking mind tell you about that feeling? Mine tells me that feeling is
irrational. Because it is!
That doesn't mean it isn't a real feeling - but it is
just a feeling. I have dozens (maybe hundreds) a day I don't act upon.
I feel like seeing that woman nekkid. I feel like running that driver into the ditch. I feel like smashing my stupid work computer. I feel like drinking.
Somehow I am managing to have a happy life doing other things. What other things do you enjoy doing?
