Yes I am talking about a psychotic episode, little clarification, I really in my heart of hearts felt that the secret to life was in the cupboard, that I only needed to understand what " they wanted" and I would be ok. I was directed to go to the field next to my house and find 46 and 2 and bring them back, and I would fine peace. I don't say that often, only my psychologist, wife a few friends, and now you guys know. Without medication I am a mess, but thats what I deal with, no medication and they will comeback. I fear that daily