I've suggested inpatient many times. I think it would do you a power of good to get away from 'being TDG'.
But only you know whether you'd really buckle down in rehab or whether you'd try and buck the system.
I can only tell you what not to do.
This is what I did - avoid doing anything much , and keep drinking - eventually you'll lose everything you hold dear and you'll find yourself at such a low ebb that 6 months Salvation Army rehab or 90 AA meetings in 90 days sounds the best offer you've ever had.
you know the old song 'you don't know what you've got til it's gone?'
I've lived that Jeremy.
I was a player and a manipulator and a charmer. I thought I could find a way to stay being that guy, drink as much as I liked, and not have bad things happen.
That was a wholly unsustainable fantasy.
Sooner or later you have to make some choices about change, and about who you want to be and what you want your life to be like.
I really recommend you make those choices now and not in 10 or 20 years time, Jeremy.
D