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I have the insane idea in my head that "dinner with my sponsor" and "going to a meeting" are just cover stories for going out to get high. The insane part is that I thought AA was some sacred place that like, you couldn't pretend you were sober if you weren't. Like somehow there was a chalk circle drawn around that space and in it, an addict couldn't lie.

He chaired an AA meeting last week and asked me to attend, which I did. Is this to prove that he's going/has gone? I met his sponsor, who actually exists--but we did not chat (not that I expected to get a report).

"Going to meetings" coincides with other behaviors I've flagged as active using (nodding out, dishonesty about money). I just wonder if he's really struggling with getting clean, or creating a diversion to protect his lies. The former would be encouraging, but the latter would really tick me off.