Obviously it is part of a much bigger problem. Obviously I can't take back what I did, even if I don't remember it. Obviously I need to be sober now. I never said I didn't fully take responsibility for what I did. I do, but I would like my faults to be met with compassion from those around me, just like I do for them. I take care of children and those in my life all day long. For once, I would like someone to take care of me with out judging me or telling me that I'm wrong and that I need to apologize and be better. I'm a pretty damn good person who has a problem that I've worked SO HARD to fix. A slip is a slip. I can't be perfect all the time. No one is. And I love my fiance and so many others for their problems. I would like to be recognized for all I do, and to be treated equally. I would like people to not focus on my negatives but my positives. It's depressing and frustrating that I just get sh*t on by those around me. WHAT MORE DO THEY WANT