Originally Posted by
NYCDoglvr 
This has happened before? So perhaps you should explore why you continue to participate in it. Have you tried Alanon? I was stuck in a self-destructive relationship and the fellowship and program helped me claw myself out and get to a much more life-affirming place in life. A big hug.
It has....:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...dumped-me.html
And you're right. This is now more about me than it is about him.
I wanted to see by myself, I dunno...
He was/is my first love so I wanted to be sure, and yet, I'm still on denial...