The one thing that does bring me down is the lack of support. Still on the waiting list for therapy, no AA where I live, my boyfriend stopped acknowledging my effort and progress after my first relapse and my parents will never admit I am any good, until it's too late and I'm drowning again.
I struggle by myself, so I'll keep my progress to myself as well from now on. Sorry for bothering you guys, good luck on your journeys.