Hi Misty.
You did exactly the right thing in not maintaining contact with someone who is violent (that would be in his interest too although I would bet he doesn't realise it)
No need whatsoever for guilt on your part.
The place you need to post Misty is on the Friends and Family of Alcoholics (see home page) You will get advice from people who have been through similar situations and are better qualified to give advice
Really sorry to hear your situation Misty but you have done the right thing
Good luck