Sorry to hear, I've been there recently, we've all been there. I'm finding this attempt at sobriety easier as I'm 1.Being open and honest with everyone, I have a problem with drink, I don't want to drink. You'll find that after slight resistance from some, people accept it and carry on with their lives. You have to be selfish, do it for you, no one else. Also, 2. Working at my sobriety daily, following the steps, connecting with my higher power, reading daily. You have to work at it.
This may be a bit of a strong message this soon but it's what I've done and it's changed my mindset entirely. Good luck and trust me, you're far from alone